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My Weakness Becomes His Strength

I know that it has been a while since I have written, but I praise the Lord that we continue to get great ministry opportunities to be a part of and press into all that God has for us on this trip. A few days ago, we got to fellowship with one of the friends I made in Harpenden last year at Circuit Riders, the leader of the Youth With a Mission (YWAM) Discipleship Training Schools (DTS) and his wife. As we talked and later prayed together, I got the opportunity to share a recent testimony that encouraged and spoke to him, and I pray that it encourages you as well!!!

Two weeks ago, I got the privilege to speak at the church of one of my friends here in Newcastle. I had met him last summer during the Circuit Rider outreach here. This was right before he became the pastor at Gateway Church and was at St. Luke’s where we were based out of. On one of our many days to go out and do evangelism, Sam joined me and we went around looking for where God was moving and trying to talk to people. We tried many times to start some sort of conversation with people but were seemingly blocked at every turn. Finally, we did get to talk to two gentlemen for a while even though they were obviously just wanting someone to talk to and did not really care about what we were saying. Apparently, Sam went out later with Jedidah and Heidi who have a gift of evangelism and talked to many people.

Sam shared with me, while we were eating lunch with him and his wife this year after I had preached, that he was rather encouraged when he went out with me. I found this very odd since it seemed hard and laborious and is definitely not my gifting. However, it seems that God was able to speak to him through this weakness and encourage him. He saw how even though this was not my gift, I was still being obedient. This led him to be obedient and lead many street evangelism teams with his church even though this is not his gifting either.

For me, this was an amazing testimony because all last year during Circuit Riders, I never got the privilege of leading anyone to The Lord. However just like Jesus said to Paul “my strength is made perfect in weakness” (2 Cor 12:9) He spoke this to me as well. Even though this was an area where I was obviously weak, I had a desire to be obedient and grow. Even though it seemed like I was failing and every outward indication was that there was no fruit from my efforts, God used it. God used my weakness to encourage a man who was about to become a pastor to lead his church on continuous evangelistic outreaches. In a way, God used my weakness and obedience in a manner that allows me to take part in every salvation that comes out of Sam’s church. God is awesome, and if Sam had not told me this, I would never have had any idea that God had used my weak obedience in such a mighty way.

My encouragement to you is to be obedient in every area. Even in the places that you feel weak, unqualified, like you have failed, or are just no good, be obedient!!! He is able to do “exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask for, hope for, or even imagine” even with our weaknesses!!! He is able to turn every one of your weaknesses into strengths and every one of your supposed defeats into great victories if you are completely obedient and submitted to Him!!! Ask Holy Spirit right now where you can be completely obedient and submitted to Him and move into that place no matter if you feel weak or strong in that area. He will make His name great so do everything to please Him completely!!!

Jeremiah, Man on Fire!!!

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Bound By Fear

As our time here in Norway draws near an end, I find myself reflecting upon all that has taken place over the last month.  The culture here is quite different from back home and way colder, yet I have found myself feeling at home in many ways.  We have over our stay attended the house church at Kjetil’s parents with him and we enjoy them and the other couple that is part of it.  It reminds me quite a bit of the group that we started over a year ago back home, Fire By Night.  It is nice being able to spend quality time with them enjoying a fine Norwegian meal (of which I first experienced lamb) and then tea and coffee time of true fellowship.  There is such freedom there as we continue into worship and the word.

The first night that we attended, Jeremiah and I were asked to lead so we took that as an invitation for Jeremiah to proudly introduce his homemade award-winning chili to them, most of which had never experienced the greatness of chili!  We met that night, Jan and Katrine, the other couple of the group.  I have grown very fond of Katrine, a Norwegian Brit with the coolest accent and personality that I have ever encountered!  She even invited me for coffee the next day and blessed me with a straightener after being without for 2 weeks after mine committed suicide in Harpenden, London…(God is faithful to provide!)  We shared that night what we had learned at Circuit Riders as well as a word that the Lord had given Jeremiah as we embarked to Norway.  After much discussion time, we were given prophetic words from the group and I was blessed to have received a prophetic word from the Lord for them as Norwegians for their country.

House Church pic attempt #3

The next week, Katrine led the word.  She had been moved to deep thought after the previous week about evangelism, what drives us in doing it or not doing it, and how to make practical steps to do it.  She works as a coach to help people for interviews, etc. so she made a very thought-provoking question sheet, we split into partners and went through the worksheet to discover the answers.  One of the biggest realizations that were brought forth through the discussion was that fear is the main hindrance that grips us.  We were asked what we thought the definition of fear was.  According to Miriam-Webster’s definition, fear is an unpleasant often strong emotion caused by anticipation or awareness of danger, or False Expectations Appearing Real.  To me, fear is anything that binds, robs, and keeps you from fulfilling God’s purpose and plans for your life.  Fear’s very nature is to deceive.  The truth is fear is not from God.               2 Timothy 1:7 says, “For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.” 

Fear has become (at least in America) an alluring stronghold in the majority of people and the sad thing is that so many, like myself at one time, don’t realize the hold it may have on them.  It hides in the horror/thriller movies, ghost-hunting, zombie, tv shows and games, Halloween is celebrated mostly through preying on people’s fears and drawing them forth…all with the excuse that it’s make-believe, not real, so it’s okay to partake in it.  These all and more open the door for the enemy to bring fear into your life.  It is truly demonic, not of God.  Furthermore, it hides subtly in everyday life and I have discovered that it has the most diverse flavors.  Fear of man (insecurity), fear of punishment (little peace, joy, hope, faith), fear of the unknown, fear of failure, fear of the past, and sudden natural fears.  I know because I have been at the hand of all of these for the majority of my life.  Fear robbed me of so much that God had for me.  It was not until I was given the revelation that called out fear for the liar that it was that I was able to gain freedom from each of these and only after that was I free to walk in what God was calling me to fully.  It is a daily decision to not allow fear in my life, and becomes more apparent the more aware I am of it’s grips.  Had I allowed fear to do what it does best, I would not be here in Norway doing ministry out of the fear of the unknown (how God would provide, what the rest of the trip looks like), failure, fear of man.  I would not have even began a relationship with my now husband because of fear of man (literally), abandonment and past hurts.  I would still be a shy, insecure, timid woman bound in a life of sickness, depression and living unfulfilled.  (Truth.)

I encourage you to examine your life and ask the Lord to show you any area in your life where fear may have a stronghold and where you may be living unfulfilled.  Fear can’t just hinder evangelism, it can hinder everything that God has for you and how He wants to change the world through you.  The dogs of doom stand at the door of destiny.  I remind you of a quote by Amy Sollars, “The enemy’s greatest fear is that we will realize who God has made us to be and we will walk in it.”   Don’t let satan bind you up in fear, but bind him up in fear by embracing everything that God has made you to be and do!

Katie, Pure Fire of Yahweh!!!